Our girl is gone.

After a long hard trip to the vet, our girl Inky was let go last night. Our brave girl hung on too hard, she wouldn’t let go on her own and so we went. Her fear is a knife to my heart right now, she was so scared at the vet’s office. So weak. We miss her deeply already. We are still grieving and teary, trying to soak up memories of the good times to replace the last week of hell and worry and sick.It is hard….I knew it would be, our hearts are a bit broken right now.

I am shamelessly stealing this quote from a recent post by Sinclair:

Kapalabhati (breath of fire) mimics the breath pattern of sobbing, or mourning, and sends messages to the brain and body that you are experiencing these things. The amount we mourn and let go = the amount of new space we have created. If you’ve loved deeply, you must mourn deeply, and vice versa.

If you do not activate something new while mourning, you’ll have nothing to let go of the past for. Inhales are essential to exhales….if we have something new to breathe in, we will be more able to fully breathe out and let go. If there’s nothing to let go for, of course we’ll go back to the past and will not move forward. Full inhales and exhales after kapalabhati = new breath, new life.

– thoughts from yoga, sarah herrington

So we mourn.  To help me through it, I wrote a post on my side blog. Inky’s story. It is long, there are photos and a video montage at the end. You don’t have to read it, but I had to do it.

New breath, new life…..her ghost is still here with us. her spirit abounds. We need to help another cat, maybe even two. We looked at Petfinder this morning and found a few girls who badly need a home. And we badly need them.